Keith Urban and Nicole Kidman may seem to lead the live we all wish we had.  Nicole loves the family she has with Keith and daughter, Sunday Rose, but she misses her two older children who live with Tom Cruise.

They live with Tom, which was their choice, the 43-year-old Rabbit Hole star admits to Hello! magazine.

Hard to believe but the kids are now 18 and 15 and it's been sometime since photos have surfaced of Nicole with the kids.

I'd love them to live with us, but what can you do? Kidman says.

Despite the distance between them, Kidman says she's extremely proud of how Cruise, 48, has raised Isabella and Connor in her absence.